For a long time, I felt numb to everything around me. I often hid in my room, refused to communicate with anyone, I felt even if I spoke, no one would understand. I just wanted to be alone in my own world, quietly. I lost interest in things that I used to enjoy, and I had no motivation for my life and my work. I felt like it didn’t matter whether I existed in this world or not. But after a while, I would feel like I could start over. I would set goals and get motivated, believe that I could definitely achieve it this time, but at the end, I couldn’t accomplish anything.
Over time, it seemed like I was living in a loop, repeating the same pattern endlessly, sometimes I felt I was falling into the abyss, sometimes I felt I could start over again. Until my emotions finally got snapped, I went to see doctor, and I was diagnosed with depression. I took the prescribed medication, quit my job because of this, and felt completely out of sorts. I was slow to respond, cried whenever I felt sad, and sometimes even had suicidal thoughts.
Fortunately, a friend introduced me to a somatic experiencing therapist at Raffe Raffee. After several months of therapy, I discovered that my depression stemmed from my past traumas. The therapist helped me to release the emotions trapped within me, taught me to be aware of my body, and provided methods for managing my emotions, all of these were incredibly helpful.
Now I no longer have depression. My thinking is so much more positive, and I can accomplish one thing after the other, on things that I want to do. I feel so happy to have found my true self again. I’m so grateful to the therapist who has helped me! Thank you!